I can’t handle you saying no
To hear that you don’t feel the same
To know that you’ve never felt this way
I excuse your absent words
Convince myself that I can sense it
Belief that I am not waiting in vain for no-day
I avoid asking questions
I have fallen deeper in your silence
Suffocating in doubt and my mind state
I’ve tried to walk away
Admitted to both you and I then run
Allowing my irrational mental thought trail
To sprint riot
The what ifs, the maybes, wishes
To imagine that you will never choose to stay
Am I not good enough