I can’t handle you saying no

To hear that you don’t feel the same

To know that you’ve never felt this way

I excuse your absent words

Convince myself that I can sense it

Belief that I am not waiting in vain for no-day

I avoid asking questions 

I have fallen deeper in your silence

Suffocating in doubt and my mind state

I’ve tried to walk away

Admitted to both you and I then run

Allowing my irrational mental thought trail

To sprint riot

The what ifs, the maybes, wishes

To imagine that you will never choose to stay

Am I not good enough